More little get-aways

I met THE MAN many times while i was out of action...things are good...we still talk a lot...we talk everyday. We do some funny things and sometimes i wished i could do so much more for him. But our situation, does not allow it...well...live and let live... :)

We've read the papers together, sat silent in a car, admired a decade old stuffed duck, shared loads of food on binging trips...all these things though not earth-shattering moments, i will remember. they were NICE moments...moments i wished i had a built-in webcam to capture then and there...maybe when its not really yours, you tend to think better of it and treasure it more huh?

I have been analysing why i am happy just to have things the way they are ...i mean we are not together and will not be together but we share this sentimental thing. I never used to be able to accept a guy, with whom i have this thing with, as a friend...i usually want more.

Maybe i've mellowed. I no longer pursue...i let matters lie... things are better left unsaid...and well... we are happy the way we are, that's the most important.

It's safer like this...no one leaves and no one gets hurt. Such a wonderful arrangement. If we were together, i would be putting myself at risk of being heart broken...yet again.

No expectations, no heart aches and no frustrations. I think i am in a win-win situation.