death without sentencing
how your face changed when you said what you said... really struck me hard, a 180-turn from look of love to look of ultimate despise. it wasn't even you at all... it seemed like another person speaking.
what is it that i did that was so bad that you changed over an hour, and not even giving me a chance to stand up for myself.
how could you just decide so fast...with 100% determination that there's no way?
things i wanted to add:
1) when i told you that i was really happy with you. i actually don't know how or what word to use to encapsulate the feeling of ultra safeness, security and happiness. you did not have to remind me that all relationships that i had before "sure have too..." yes they did but it was different. cz YOU were current... YOU were the now. YOU were a friend before a lover. i felt like me with you...and i knew i was 100% safe or at least i thought so.
2) truth does not hurt. it's YOUR about-turn that hurt me. your stubbornness not to listen or tell me what REALLY was on your mind. it felt like you got what you wanted and just brushed me off. it felt like i really meant nothing, that was the complete opposite in your behaviour in the past month. NOTHING... just another gf that you cannot get along with. no need to work too hard. no need to try. just give up and walk away. that's really easier for you right? 'Fess up i'm really just another girl to you, ain't that right? sure come across as so.
lost and empty? what do you know about lost and empty. thanks for caring huh... i think i have made things too easy for you. i'm too nice, even up to this stage i have just been too nice. letting you have it too easy.
what is it that i did that was so bad that you changed over an hour, and not even giving me a chance to stand up for myself.
how could you just decide so fast...with 100% determination that there's no way?
things i wanted to add:
1) when i told you that i was really happy with you. i actually don't know how or what word to use to encapsulate the feeling of ultra safeness, security and happiness. you did not have to remind me that all relationships that i had before "sure have too..." yes they did but it was different. cz YOU were current... YOU were the now. YOU were a friend before a lover. i felt like me with you...and i knew i was 100% safe or at least i thought so.
2) truth does not hurt. it's YOUR about-turn that hurt me. your stubbornness not to listen or tell me what REALLY was on your mind. it felt like you got what you wanted and just brushed me off. it felt like i really meant nothing, that was the complete opposite in your behaviour in the past month. NOTHING... just another gf that you cannot get along with. no need to work too hard. no need to try. just give up and walk away. that's really easier for you right? 'Fess up i'm really just another girl to you, ain't that right? sure come across as so.
lost and empty? what do you know about lost and empty. thanks for caring huh... i think i have made things too easy for you. i'm too nice, even up to this stage i have just been too nice. letting you have it too easy.
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