happy...

i am very tempted to say that yes, i'm OVER THE MOON-ly delirously happy...that it feels really RIGHTTTTT... that you R what i am looking for... you make me feel safe/ protected and i needn't worry about the world - you have it all under your control

but i'm afraid

lest these words come back and deliver an awfully-deep and scarring slap

and that i might scare both of us into hiding in the dark and lazy world where this is all better avoided and left unsaid

i know it's just a fear and scepticism lingering that might or might not fade away but what really matters to me is that i took the step, it happened and well, i is doing me best! that one i guarantee. =B

but NOW, right NOW...it just REALLY feels awright... =B