bang head on the wall

it's been a month, i've started my new job at the tower... things are going ok. there are some "complications" but well bite the bullet and go la.

i was in maldives and i am back. don't really wana talk about it as well... i will so be "sea-sick". miss it so much.

the new job and maldives, i will share more later.

meanwhile today is "i-wana-bang-my-head-on-the-wall" day. why? why? why?

i have this uncanny ability to screw the one thing that i think will work by doing something stupid. i think i just did it again on saturday, to the beats of satoshi spinning. satoshi was fantastic.. the music was good and well i think the mood just came and hit me and i think it all went downhill from there. the whole mood thing was just too THERE though i've psyched myself i CANNOT do anything stupid! he was nice and funny... it was the third time i met him and well i liked him... i did, his quiet coolness, understated presence and the eyes... the eyes! it's a "hmmmm got potential" thing, WHICH i HAVE NOT felt for ever so long... so it was really but... well... my psyching went down the drain basically, or so i think la. that's it lor...

why why why? urghhh... i need a big strong wall right now.