i had a dream

no trouble sleeping at all after a "hard-day" blading ... haha... and yes i did fall but it felt good to have my limbs all over the place while i hit the ground and then struggled to get up. it's true that the physical pain felt good at this time when mental and emo pain is so very high.

i slept like a baby for like over 8 hrs... sometime i would otherwise have problems doing, usually i would be up and restless pretty early, therefore the early morning runs on sat and sun was like superrrrr long.

but the sleep had bits and pieces of you everywhere... us at your place... u with your preppy look and us out... your smile... your smell. you were back to torment me. i woke up half expecting you to call me to say that last week was a joke.. you just meant to test me on how i deal with this kinda issues. i think i still have problems accepting it. sleep also sad... can't sleep also sad... don't know what to do now... how? how?