U aint know shit!?!

i recently heard a most obnoxious comment from a very unexpected person. totally turned me off "you ain't know shit until you have my job".

fine in that case, you ain't gona hear from me about anything anymore. it just made it feel like what you have listening to about my job but you don't very much want to hear coz it's nothing really, anyway what i do can't be as shitty as what you do, right? don't have to put me down you know. now i know what you have been thinking all alone. what i do ain't as shitty as what u do ie. you are doing a tougher job etc.

i don't like that you have put down my job and suffering to make yours worse than mine. don't ever put anyone down can? bad for kharma. this has made me reconsider my next step during my break. it may not go as what i have previously planned anymore. i may just end up in sgp - lazing and doing nothing. beats doing something that would make me fume.

little tin train

gosh. this was such an amazing find! i was mesmerised with this little tin train. it's really old school sort of wind up toy, reminds me of the toys when i was a kid early 80s period. simply had to buy it. video resolution is horrible though =P

what i want

the sun is blazing. i really should go swim and get a bit of the sun but i is lazy. stay in the shade and blog/ surf/ read/ nuah/ DVDs instead. i missed my run this morning coz:
1) was out drinking wine and watching LONG WEEKEND (must catch... hilarious!) at gf's place
2) i left my phone at her place (yes yes... yet AGAIN i go around leaving my trail of belongings)
3) i had to take a bus to her place to pick up my phone
4) thinking of all of the above made me too tired to want to wake up and run haha

on the other handm my tan is fading fast lor. it is upseting.

just to share with for sizzler lovers:

And here is what got me all excited all morning. ipod - the KAT. i want her BADdddddd! she is the sweetest, gentle and very clean from what i see in the video. up for adoption leh. she's a darling lor. =S


she's the type of cat i want eventually. someone not too young, someone steady, someone clean and have a strong attitude. sounds like i the man i am looking for hor? haha.

i want ipod as my pet... i wan... i wan... i wan... =(

new beginnings

i is back!

i was bored with the old skin i had with the egghead chick/duck. this one simple enough. i just want to write when i wana write so it don't really matter right?

it's been a tough half a year. 2007 has start for quite a while so it's time to like be less manic depressive and be more positive. this is my first step to finding myself and my life. i've been lost for over a year - not good.

the past few weeks I have been feeling better now that...

- I HAVE QUIT-TED ...*hahahaha* though i am treated like second rate citizen at the moment and basically nobody cares in helping you get your work done... i still feel XTREMELY relieved. i actually feel my disposition moving up a notch

- "All my base... are belong to you"... DO NOT ask me what that means but it cheered me up... =) the accompanying message to this bunch of cheer-up-with-"cheese and corn"-frowers. it's sweet... i can't say i am not touched. they arrived one pre-lunch afternoon after a real depressive release chat apparently to cheer me up and keep me off the edge... nice...
- i saw one-legged ducks! haah... i pity the duckys at the gardens it's been pouring non-stop and well...i haven't really seen them in the waters... it must be friggin cold lor... just see them standing one-legged (i thought only flamingoes do that?) with their heads tucked under their wings.
- i have a "free" notebook... a RED one at that lor! it is a piece of beauty man! Panasonic Toughbook CFW4 weighing a mere 1.2kg! beat that! it's loaned to me for one-mth trial thereafter i have the option to purchase it at 50% discount. i is VERY tempted... its batt lasts about 4 to 5hrs when i work nonstop on it. However specs not so desirable (512RAM, Pentium M processor 1.2GHz ultra low voltage processor, Intel 915 GMS chip set)... not top range by at 1899... worth it bo?? i am jobless soon so i will really think abt it. but hor... its still dam chio... hehehhh
- my jet-setting globe-trotter came back from europe... and he bought me a sleeping/ snoring pig... duh... and of course chanel parfum... too busy to do actual shopping. ok la... credit has to be given for remembering that i use a lot of chanel products. heee.... thanks to my evil twin lor... but well i think i am slowly but steadily becoming a convert =)
the pig actually snores and have an expanding-contracting stomach to match the snoring. i is amused.

- my brother is settled down. i will miss him still and whenever i pass by the accident site (which is often, considering its by AYE) it just really brings up a lot of emotions pouring over - blame, guilt, anger, sadness, pity but the heart ache is immense. i cannot put in words the hand-around-my-heart sorta pain that i feel still. i just don't think i've been the best of sister - that's really the worse bit of everything.
- i have stopped smoking. Day 5 of cigarette-free living. it was really getting me down, i really felt that i smelt bad, my running was super affected - perpetual lo-energy and well i figured i did it for quite a few months before so i can do it again after all i picked it up after this job i'm doing really almost killed me. now that i quit-ted it's time i quit the cigs too. So well done for me, everyday i spent not smoking, makes me prouder

- i joined a care group. just thought i would try it out. i joined a new creation care group in jalan membina. ok... but well i am still overwhelmed by the tongues thing and also how come people talk so much. mayb it's a release and maybe i should learn to share more. i am not certain i will continue but i think it was an encouraging first step and i'm not totally turned off by the idea. i will kiv it until the next session comes along.